J-emine's reflexionando

Hot, steaming bowl of Kimchi ramen (vegetarian, omitted all meat – can’t do away with certain processed and dairy products in my diet, yet. Shall save that for another entry) is the best cure, couple that with some good o’l foot reflex, from a night of disrupted sleep and rather, terrifying dream.

Speaking of dreams, how many of you out there believe that dreams represent our innermost, deepest fears, needs, secrets etc that emerges from the unconscious mind to form into our own consciousness. The other night (yes, the night of disrupted sleep), I dreamt that I committed suicide – me?!

Pretty bizarre, I must say. I can’t comprehend how, why and what would trigger such thoughts in my unconscious mind. To say the least, I’m an optimistic and positive person by nature; and do believe that I love life and myself not to take it away with my bare hands (such gloom, sorry!). Like everyone, I have my idiosyncrasies and mood swings but to plunge into the land of no returns…not my cup of tea, no matter how bad things get.

With that said, I was pretty curious to read/understand the interpretations of my “suicidal dream”, did a google and this was what I found;

To dream that you commit suicide represents your desperate desire to escape from your waking life. You may be harboring feelings of guilt that you cannot get over and thus turning the aggression on yourself. You need to start approaching problems from a different angle. Alternatively, the dream suggests that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself and hello to a whole new you. It is symbolic of a personal transformation or a new stage in your life. (courtesy of dreammood.com)

I had a good think of the interpretation and reflected on my current, emotional state – I definitely don’t harbour any form of guilt or aggression towards myself. I DO beat myself over stuff that I can do better in, but not something I would hate myself over. Nonetheless, it was the part on personal transformation that struck a huge chord – we’re moving into a new year, and with that surely comes new challenges, resolutions and changes in our lives. Quite apt and timely for a “suicidal dream” to take place, dont’cha think? (come’on look on the bright side of life).

Hence, my own “interpretation” – 2013 will bring new changes (be it good or bad) and personal transformation in all aspects of my life that will allow me to cultivate, grow and emerge a better person than I was in 2012.

I reckon it wasn’t a bad dream after all, right?